Ty it has been 10 weeks today that you have not been physically here. My heart still hurts a lot and I am just beginning to accept the reality that you are not coming back. Most days I feel as if everyone else has moved on and I am somehow stuck. I finished, well almost finished, your scrapbook. I have found a few more pictures to add. I am afraid to get another Puppy because he wont be you. There will never be another TY and I have to face that fact. It is not a fair expectation to place on another dog. You were one of a kind my boy. I am sending Lucy and Chan to the doggie hotel soon and I am so nervous. Losing you has placed new fears in me. You always had such a good time there except I think your jumping could get a bit much. You watch over them ok? Please send me a picture, a penny or a dime and let me know you are ok. I found a 4 leaf clover from the lawn mower the other day. From you? I just looked down and there it was. I miss you as much today as when you first left. It is in some ways not as raw a pain, but it hurts as much because the permanence of this is setting in. I will never hug your neck again on earth and that makes me feel scared and sad. The only thing that brings me any comfort at all is the fact that you no longer have pain. I am so very sorry it took me so long to accept that you were not going to beat this. These are a few pages from the scrapbook, will post more another day. Miss and love you my boy, Mommy
Found these today. Thank you my boy. I needed them. missing you a lot this week. Your brother got an upset tummy from some new food and he would not eat and just laid around. Brought back some memories of you feeling so bad. I am still looking for your bath picture. I got your scrapbook done, well, now I want to add these in. That would be a good thing, I finish and you keep sending pictures. Look at how Chandler is looking at you with such love in his eyes. We got you because we thought you were lonely. And who can forget Barky Brinkley, she is still pretty much the same. we must have been dog sitting her when this was taken. You guys had such fun running and romping in the yard together. I guess all in all, you probably thought you had life pretty good. Labs are always so happy and you were no exception. We have to redo the porch steps as they are sinking into the driveway. I know, you never used them anyway. You just leaped directly on to the porch without ever touching the steps. Thump, clump, scratch, scratch, I can still hear you. The scratches are all still there on the porch and I think I may never paint over them. I miss you big guy. I miss your smiling, happy face, your goofy expressions and your vocal noises. I miss the thumping of your tail on the walls, floors and my dryer. your tail never stopped until the last day. When you no longer had the energy to wag, well then I knew….does not make it easier, but I knew what I would have wanted if I was in your place. Just wish I could turn back time and snuggle your warm body, kiss the sweet spot between your eyes and pet your silky ears. I love you TY GUY!